Don't Fall Asleep Now

The 'new future' is inviting you to step into your individuality.

Dear Beautiful Humans,

I tried writing you yesterday morning. And afternoon. And evening.

And after yesterday’s meltdown and today’s meditation, I now know why I couldn’t.

My emotions were stuck in a jam and needed a release.

No more feminine suppression, remember?

Forever fascinated at the ways women are captured throughout history. These are photos from a trip to Italy last June.

Let’s talk about this because the moment I put those words out into the world - ‘no more feminine suppression’, the universe was like:

Oh yeah? Really? You ready to practice this yourself? Let’s seeeeeee how far you’ve come.

Cue: A series of ‘intense and familiar’ emotional cyclings I began having with my beloved.

Cyclings are what I refer to as arguments - happening over and over - that have a very deep, very raw, very historical (+hysterical) context where the unhealed parts of us are seeking a corrective experience from an external source (lover, mother, father, sibling, friend, boss, etc.).

It’s the inner child in us screaming out: I need you to please fix this for me, please meet this need for me, please make it better for me.

But that never works. Like never works.

Because the universe is like Mama/Papa energy always guiding us to our own personal power.

It wants us to revisit all of those fragmented parts and give them what they didn’t get.

It wants us to self-realize our own wholeness.

Just like math, it does not reward shortcuts and you must show your work:)

The feminine energy was weaved in at every turn, if you looked for her. The second photo is in the Pantheon which is interpreted as the divine union of heaven and earth, masculine and feminine, matter and spirit. At the very center of the dome is the oculus which symbolizes a divine portal (womb) that 'lets in' rain, light, and air.

After trying to get a release from my partner, I finally surrendered (again) to the assignment:

You cannot outsource your power. You must do this for yourself first.

Meaning you must feel safe to express how you feel.

Sounds like:

How I feel is not a burden.

How I feel is not up for debate.

How I feel is not too much.

How I feel is not inconvenient.

How I feel does not need to look/feel tidy and neat.

How I feel does not need to make logical sense.

It. Just. Is.

That’s feminine energy.

But/And/Also:

You must learn to hold yourself in that process.

Sounds like:

I am not going anywhere.

I’ve got you.

I can handle this.

I can honor this storm with presence.

I will hold you while you fall apart.

I am not afraid of your expression.

I will lead you to and through.

That’s masculine energy.

An integration of both is required. Where the mirror becomes the medecine.

All of you, within you, by you, for you.

The columns of the Pantheon are known as the guardians and temple keepers; symbolizing a threshold space - a transition from ordinary world to sacred interior. Second photo is another structure built on top of a sacred site of Isis - Goddess of Motherhood, Magical Protector and embodied feminine power. Last photo: EGGS everywhere. If you look, you will find HER..

Yes, people are here to mirror/reflect/provoke/support you, but they cannot do the internal reorganization/reclamation for you.

That’s your assignment. And you must show your work.

Which brings me to something very important to pay attention to here.

Right now, we are witnessing and experiencing an outdated paradigm that is literally oozing its wound everywhere.

One aspect of the wound being that we outsourced our personal power to false gods.

To the Presidents, the Gurus, the Governments, the Systems (education, labor, health, food and agriculture).

So that “they” can make it easier for us, faster for us, better for us, safer for us.

Sound familiar?

But that never works. Like never works.

There are no shortcuts and we must show our work.

Internal wholeness reflected back to us as external wholeness.

We stayed at a villa that was owned by the Medici family and where Galileo studied the stars. Second photo: My girl. Last Photo: My love.

This doesn’t happen in systems or constructs where everything is outsourced. Especially ones that over-compensate/dominate/control with one energy over the other.

It happens inside of you first. Within.

You can’t skip this step.

There once was a time for Presidents, Gurus, Governments and Systems, but that time is coming to an end. Quickly.

Something much, much, much more powerful than that is being invited forward.

Individuals - like you and me - willing to weave their wholeness back into the fabric of society - hand by hand, heart by heart, side by side.

Individuals expressing their individuality. (reminder)

Together. Becoming whole again.

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Don’t fall asleep now.

The ‘new future’ is inviting you to stay awake and step into your individuality.

THAT is the power play.

XX,

Stacy